I'm really sorry.
Maybe this will help. One morning I'm driving to work. Turn onto the major road into town about two miles from the house and see in my rear-view my cat tumbling down the road. He must've been sleeping in the engine compartment???? Never figured that one out. I pulled over and tried to find him without any luck. My wife and I spent three days looking for him, put up posters, door-to-door, etc etc. Never did find him.
Thirteen days later he shows up at our doorstep. The previously sixteen pounder weighed about nine pounds. He was hungry and glad to be home. He never did tell us where he had been or what he did.