Hi Matt.
You are in the same place I was about a year and half ago. It is frustrating I know , But I know you can get thought it. The thing I believe that got me through it was I started to shoot alot more with Cam and Tom. You all ways see us busting on each other that is more of a relaxing thing ( a relaxed mind and body is a receptive mind and body ) then any thing else in my opinion. The first key is to relax then every thing will start to come together.
Like Matt said if you want start squadding with Matt , Tom and myself we would be more then happy to help you out. We are all pushing each other one will just make it better.