John i kinda heisitated about posting this cause its kind of embarassing but i get the same way a lot. Ive been powerlifting drug free for several years and got to the point where i found myself not enjoying it. If i broke a record i was on top of the world but failure in the gym would put me in a horrible mood towards everybody. I actually find myself trying to lean that way towards my shooting. I ended up tearing a bicep which put me out for a while. Maybe its some sorta compulsive disorder. Sometimes i would actually avoid doing a certain lift out of fear i wouldnt do as good before and i knew how it would bring me down. I took a layoff and when i came back i felt great. Sometimes i start to get the same way towards shooting. If i go out and im not doing as good as before it would get me down. Im finally realizing what the real important things are in life (wife,kids,health) and the other is for fun.