Something I came to understand is that being as into something as you would like to be isn’t always in the cards. I’m active duty military with 5 kids. Been deploying for the last 17 yrs. just now got a desk job and am now MAKING the time to pursue my interests. Just wasn’t possible before, but it is now, and I’m making it happen. Understand that doing one thing means something else isn’t getting done. In the end your priorities are for you to decide, combined with what your life allows.