Anxiety is a polite word for fear. You cannot be anxious unless you believe that you are going to be harmed. Anxiety is the perception that you are going to be harmed.
You create your own anxiety when you have a reflected sense of self and you attempt to regulate your anxiety through how well you shoot.
We create our own anxiety when our sense of self is dependent on what other people think of us. Anxiety is created when we base our sense of adequateness, competency, value and worth as a human on achieving and performing. We get anxious when we don’t perform well (and we feel bad about ourselves), then we attempt to regulate that anxiety by working harder so that we can achieve and perform better (creating an endless feedback loop).
“We believe in a personal, unique and separate identity; but if we dare examine it, we find that this identity depends entirely on an endless collection of things to prop it up: our name, our ‘biography,’ our partners, family, home, job, friends, credit cards…It is on their fragile and transient support that we rely on for security. So when they are all taken away, will we have any idea of who we really are?
Without our familiar props, we are faced with just ourselves, a person we do not know, an unnerving stranger with whom we have been living all the time but we never really wanted to meet. Isn’t that why we have tried to fill every moment of time with noise and activity, however boring or trivial, to ensure that we are never left in silence with this stranger on our own?” The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying. Soyal Rinpoche.
Know thyself: Socrates