Thanks man, I totally understand the mindset. It's hard to describe unless you go through it. I wanted so badly to stop, everyone was jumping on me about it. I understand I have a great deal to live for, a one year old a five year old and a great wife. I don't want to die I just want to be able to feel my hands and feet without them tingling/ hurting. That was / is my greatest fear, then again death is permanent and I'm not going there. It's hard to describe how one feels going through it until you have. Since this started you have Been there and I really appreciate the connection, it helps me out a lot