"situational depression is something that can take a heavy toll. Classic symptoms are general lethargy, loss if interest in people, places and things we used to enjoy, trouble sleeping, anxiety, and a host of other things that may be specific to the individual. Most times we yearn to be back to where we were prior to the catastrophic situations that brought us down, but simply can't find the motivation to move in the right direction." Lifeislarge hit the nail on the head; sounds like that is exactly your current issue. I don't know exactly what your feeling or going through right now but I understand. The only advice I have for you is that the cure may be harder then the problem. Sometimes people need counseling to deal with things and may be reluctant to go that route because they believe it says "I'm weak. I can't do this by myself." Also the soluition for situational depression is just time and to remove yourself from the situation. A lot of people see this a being a "quitter". You're not; your simply settimg limits on the amount of crap you're willing to put up with. As for the shooting, I simply can't say it better then Steve did so I won't even try. Good luck, brother. I hope my pseudointellectual blatthering didn't offend you and if I can ever be of any help or just someone to listen to, shoot me a PM.
DVC,
Doug